Theme: Am I willing to trade something
that I cannot keep for something that I cannot lose?
For
nearly all of my life, I have been trying to get the answer to two very
important questions:
1.
For what purpose did God create me? I mean, why did He bother? What was
His reason for creating my soul which will last forever?
2.
Why did God allow me for virtually all my life to have to deal with my
homosexuality? I know that an all-powerful and sovreign God could
certainly and easily have prevented whatever it was that led to me
ultimately being homosexual. Why did He not prevent that? Why did He
allow me to have to suffer with this lifelong issue?
These
are two questions that I seriously thought I would never get the answer
to. I thought I would live and die, and only be told the answers after
I passed from this life into the next. Never in my wildest dreams did I
think I would really know the answers to these questions in this
lifetime, much less how the answers would affect me so profoundly. But
with God there is often no predicting, so once again He found that I
underestimated Him.
It turns out that the answers to the two
questions above are both amazingly simple, yet amazingly complex at the
same time. Even crazier is the fact that, and this caught me totally
off guard, both questions can be answered with the same answer! How
crazy is that!
Here are the questions and associated answers:
Q:
For what purpose did God create me? I mean, why did He bother? What was
His reason for creating my soul which will last forever?
A: To bring glory to God.
Q:
Why did God allow me for virtually all my life to have to deal with my
homosexuality? I know that an all-powerful and sovreign God could
certainly and easily have prevented whatever it was that led to me
ultimately being homosexual. Why did He not prevent that? Why did He
allow me to have to suffer with this lifelong issue?
A: To bring glory to God.
What?
You mean both questions have the same answer? Yes. And that answer is
"to bring glory to God"? Yes. Something here does not compute. How in
the world did I get those two (same) answers? Simple, I asked God to
answer those two questions, and with the help of some very wise and
blessed men, and the Holy Spirit, and His Word, got the answers I was
seeking. It has changed my life profoundly, and I will explain those
answers in this document so that you too may have at least some
of the benefit of whatever understanding that God has allowed
me
to have.
Let me interject something here if I may. Some of the
things that God has revealed to me are very difficult to convert into
English language. That is because sometimes God gives us a type of
understanding that is not easily translated into words. Now I am not
saying that God talks to me in the same way He did to some of the Old
Testament people, but what I am saying is that God, through the Holy
Spirit helps me to understand and receive wisdom and knowledge
in
ways that I cannot acknowledge or fully
understand. To help you understand what I am dealing with, imagine
trying to explain a color to someone who is color blind. You would try
to say it's kind of dark like red, but it also has a lot of yellow in
it, but also has a tint of green as well. That might not really make
any sense to the person you're trying to explain the color to. You
would both be frustrated because you are not able to easily explain
something that you can see in your mind but the other person cannot.
Also think of it like trying to describe a perpetrator who has
committed a crime and you know fairly well what he looks like and need
to describe that to a police artist so that a picture of the alleged
criminal can be made. You may know in your mind exactly what that
person looks like but to be able to describe that to a police sketch
artist so that they can draw a picture of that person to be recognized,
that is a huge challenge for both the person describing the perpetrator
as well as the police artist who is trying to obtain that information
in the best possible way.
In much the same way God, through the power and all-knowing wisdom of
the Holy Spirit has revealed
some things to me that are very difficult to be able to put down in
words. Often this means that a person who does not have some
of
this information might have a challenge to understand what I am trying
to say and be able to apply that to his or
her own life. I fully believe that when a person desires to glorify God
in every way, God will somehow inject some information,
wisdom, or
other essential things into that person's life. I do not feel that I am
special in this way, but simply that I have taken this step to
glorify God,
and am seeing some of the by-products of doing that. I feel that if you
also
desire to glorify God in a very serious way, that you too will
experience wisdom and revelations in your life that you also thought
might never be possible. So if you do not understand all that I
am saying here it just may mean that perhaps I have not described it
accurately or that maybe at some point when you open your mind to God's
leading that this will make a lot more sense to you.
You see,
those answers are also what I refer to as "the theory of everything."
That theory is very terse, consisting of only six words: "God does
everything for His glory." Short, sweet, and absolutely rock-solid
true. This simple phrase is sufficient to explain everything that you
see in God's universe, every object ever created or will ever be
created, every act done by God in the past present or future, and every
creature ever created in the universe including you and me. I believe
it is 100% consistent with everything that God has done as documented
in His Word, His Message to us, the Holy Bible. When I
first came across this theory it seemed way too simplistic for me to be
anything even close to realistic. But the more I examined it and the
more I looked in the Holy Bible for wisdom and insight, the more it
seemed to be realistic, logical and true. It also explained the purpose
for which God created me.So that at least answered the first question
that I asked above.
Let
us talk for a few moments about the whole topic of glory and who is
deserving of glory. The term "glory" is often misused much like the
word "love" is misused. Glory is defined by some dictionaries as
praise, honor, admiration, or distinction, accorded by common consent
to a person or thing; high reputation; honorable fame; renown. Glory is
often a loaded term because many of us very much want to receive glory
but also do not want to give glory to others sometimes even when it is
even
well-deserved. I guess if I was king of the world I would decree that
the word "glory" can ONLY be used when referring to God Almighty alone,
and never allowed to be used when referring to any object, person, or
entity that is not God.
Now it is clear that we human beings
generally do not like people who seek glory for themselves. They are
often self-centered egotists who think only of themselves and never
would think of doing anything for anyone else unless it makes them look
good and fits in their self-centered universe. I don't know a single
person who really likes such a person. Oh yes, many of the glory
seekers have so-called friends, but that is because their so-called
friends are hoping to "tag along" with them to someday receive the
acolades and glory for themselves that the self-centered egotists now
get. Or perhaps, since fame is power in a real sense, they are hoping
to cash in on that fame of the egotist so that they can be associated
with someone with power and fame; they themselves may perhaps the void
of any self-esteem and social standards and may even be morally or
ethically bankrupt.
So naturally when I say that there is
someone who seeks glory for Himself, people naturally assume the worst.
And it turns out that negative assumption is sadly
made even if that Person is God Himself.
"How dare God seek His own glory," some might complain, not fully
realizing who it is they are really talking about.
"I
don't want to worship or glorify a God who is so stuck on Himself,"
others might retort, thus giving God the same attributes and disdain
that they'd give to a totally selfish and self-centered human being.
However, those people are making the huge mistake of putting God into
the same category they'd put a co-worker or someone else they know.
This is an absolutely HUGE mistake, made by many out of ignorance,
apathy, or just plain laziness to learn and apply the truth.
The
purpose of this web site is not to prove that God is worthy of our
worship or glory, because that is a whole world unto itself to
demonstrate that such is the case based on Biblical history and man's
relationship with God over the ages. Rather,
the purpose of this site is to explain how God answered my huge
question about the purpose or sanity or insanity of my homosexuality.
If you want to explore more about God's innate glory, please check out
a source that helped me see the truth, John Piper's Resource Library at
this link.
NOT
CURSED, BUT RATHER CHALLENGED
For
all my life I saw myself as cursed by my homosexuality. Yes, really
cursed in every sense of the word. It dogged me like a bad disease, and
I was very resentful toward God for allowing me to have to deal with
it. I wanted to be heterosexual, and have a life like so many other
heterosexuals which involves a spouse, children, a home in the suburbs
with a nice lawn, good job, and 3.2 children. I thought that not having
that would make it impossible for me to be happy. I did not have it, so
I was, "duh", not happy! For much of my adult life I struggled along,
just waiting for death to end my miserable existence.
I was
homosexual, hated that, hated myself, hated the whole world, and was
not happy with God at all. Yes, I did acknowledge Him, and even talked
to Him, and even tried to worship Him, but deep down, was completely
and totally resentful toward Him. I also had a huge rebellious streak
in me that made it very difficult to come to God with any level of
humility. What a weird and unhappy irony to try and worship a God you
blame for all your ills! Pretty much needless to say, it was not
getting me anywhere, because my brain realized the incongruity of that
paradox of trying to worship and glorify a God that one cannot really
love because of what turned out to be deep-seated resentment. I have to
admit that I had no idea what it really meant to glorify God.
Glorifying God was just a phrase to me and virtually nothing more. I
was miserable and waited for death, all the time hoping that God would
have mercy on me and NOT send me directly to Hell when I died, but
rather have pity on this miserable specimen of a human. After all, I
did realize at least that Jesus Christ did come and die for everyone's
sins, including mine. I was sincerely hoping that would keep me out of
Hell. So I feared God, but really did not truly and deeply love Him
mainly because He refused to either "cure" my homosexuality or give me
the object of my dreams, which was my handsome knight in
shining
armor to come and rescue me and help me live happily ever after because
I was getting everything I wanted. I was
a complete and total mess. Just existing. Not thriving, and
certainly not able to share much with others who were homosexual. Yeah,
I did create this web site many years ago hoping that some day I might
actually be able to put stuff on it that would make a difference. But I
was pessimistic about that as well. I essentially was going through the
motions, but did not have any real emotional justification to love God.
Then
about a year ago, being one who loved to watch DVD documentary-type
programs (nonfiction), a friend introduced me to the work of an
evangelist named Louie Giglio. I saw one of his series done a while ago
named "Passion" and was amazed by the way that Louie seemed to talk
directly to me. It was as if he knew what I was struggling with and
addressed it with both love and conviction. He made me want to know
more about God and he seemed to make the scriptures come alive to me as
he addressed many of the issues that I have struggled with all my life.
So I got more of his DVDs and it was the combination of two of them
that made that proverbial light bulb come on and shine very brightly
above my head. One was a DVD series entitled "Canvas"
which discussed how God is painting on a huge canvas of unimaginable
proportions and we are but a very tiny part of that. The other was the
Passion 2010 Conference in Atlanta,
where much of the conference helped me know and understand what it is
to truly understand WHY God is deserving of an infinite amount of glory
and honor from every living being capable of giving such glory and
honor. John Piper's presentation was especially relevant to me.
It was after watching those two series produced years apart assisted by
a third DVD called "Two Words"
(select the DVD for maximum impact) that God finally revealed to me the
"theory of everything" that helped
make sense of the whole universe, and most especially, those two very
perplexing and heretofore unanswerable questions listed above. It was
when I grasped the six simple words of that phrase, "God does
everything for His glory" that the "theory of everything" became clear,
as well as the answer to my two questions I thought would never be
answered in this lifetime.
WHY
MY HOMOSEXUALITY IS NOT A CURSE BUT RATHER A CHALLENGE
I
have come to discover lately that my homosexuality is not a curse but
rather a challenge for one simple reason: it encourages me to give a crazy
amount of glory to God every day that I meet this challenge that
I exercise success over that challenge. It clearly was not God
who
"made me gay" but rather circumstances and events, many of which were
beyond my control. It certainly was possible for God to prevent me from
experiencing a life of homosexuality but in His infinite wisdom He felt
that I could give Him far more glory as a homosexual who meets and
exceeds the challenges that are handed to him than one who would be
straight and live a pretty typical vanilla life in the suburbs. I know
this does not make a lot of sense to someone who has not been given a
little extra information in this life; you may be someone who has not
seen part of the curtain raised by God about who He is and His desire
to spend eternity with you. In my own life God has raised that curtain
just a
little bit and revealed to me some of why I have faced what I have
faced. I believe He has done this because He knew I would have great
difficulty in sharing the information that I have without knowing
personally something about where I have been and why I have been there.
THE
CELESTIAL HAND OF CARDS
While
I don't think our lives are randomly chosen by God, I do think there is
a certain amount of perceived randomness in who God decides will get
what talents, what challenges, and where one will be born, and who will
be one's parents as well as many other seeming random facts about each
life. I say it is perceived randomness because that is how it appears
to you and me. However that is because we cannot possibly
understand God's
big picture, that huge canvas that He is writing upon with each of our
individual lives and how they all fit together in His amazing
structure. To you and me it would appear similar to God dealing a hand
of cards to each individual when his or her soul is created by God.
This deck of cards that each of us is dealt is different for every
single one of us--no two individuals ever before created or
ever after
created has the exact same deck of cards dealt by God. To each of us
this would seem to be a very random event, but in reality God knows
exactly what He is doing even though we cannot possibly really
understand nearly any of it. That is due to our infinitely
small minds and
our sin nature that causes us to be rebellious against God and ignorant
of His ways. So to you and me we are dealt this hand of what seems like
random cards and this may help define the talents that we have been
given by God. I'm talking about talents such as music ability,
mathematical ability, ability to learn and use languages, ability to
deal effectively with other humans, just to name a few.
Also
included in this seeming random deck of cards that each of us is dealt
may be circumstances beyond which we have any control. Things such as
who
are parents are, what environment we are born into, and what kind of
childhood we have, may all play a part in making us the teenager or
adult that we ultimately will turn out to be. As an aside I would like
to say this is why child abuse is such a serious issue and why I think
that people who abuse young children are completely messing up
the
deck of cards that that child has been dealt. That unfortunately means
that life for that person may be very difficult to
live
joyfully or effectively as they
struggle to overcome the abuse that was thrown at them as a young child.
And
yes I do include homosexuality in this particular dealing of cards. Not
that God has made a person to be homosexual but that that is how it
turned out possibly due to environmental, genetic or other
characteristics that the individual may not have control over and is a
result of the sin nature that every single one of us inherits from our
parents. Let me give you an example that may make some more sense. A
person may be born with a predilection towards alcohol abuse. This is
something that comes down from perhaps our parents through the sin
nature that each of us possesses. God has allowed us to
inherit the sin nature of our parents. I believe that He has allowed
that because in overcoming our sin nature we are able to give God far
more glory than ever possible had we not had that sin nature and been
able to overcome it. Unfortunately many times a person who has a
tendency to become an alcoholic may in fact ultimately give in to that
tendency and indeed become an alcoholic. He or she may then blame God
for "making me an alcoholic" and turn that alcoholism into a source of
rebellion against God and certainly deny God the glory that He
deserves. On the other hand a person who has a tendency to become an
alcoholic or a genetic disposition towards that may overcome that
through self-discipline and a relationship with Jesus Christ, combined
with the supernatural power of the Holy Spirit, and in that God
receives massive amounts of glory if that person resists the drift
toward alcoholism for God's glory.
The sad news is however, if
that person gives in to his or her alcoholism, not only does God not
receive the glory that is due to Him, but that person's life is also
painful, struggling, unhappy, and certainly not fulfilling in nearly
any sense of the word. I believe there are very few humans alive who
think that alcoholism is a good thing. So if we apply the same
principle to homosexuality, the application is very similar and the
choices are also very similar. While God does not "make anyone a
homosexual," He does allow some people to have a tendency towards being
a homosexual as part of the sin nature that we all inherit. That is
clearly what happened in my case. I was not born a homosexual, but
through events that took place in my early childhood for whatever
reason,
it happened. When I learned that I was homosexual, I more or less
embraced it as something I have to deal with; but instead of seeing it
as a challenge, I saw it as a curse and yet another reason to resent
and rebel against God. So for most of my entire adult life from the
time that I first discovered my homosexuality, I viewed it as a curse,
something that I hated in myself, something I resented God for, and
ultimately something I thought I could learn to live with and survive
in this life even though it kept me apart from God. And it certainly
kept me from giving God the glory that He deserved.
WHAT
GOD'S REVELATION TO ME TOLD ME
Through
the DVDs mentioned above, combined with revelation from the Holy Spirit
and study of God's Word, I came to understand that regardless whatever
hand of cards that I was dealt when I was born and in my childhood,
that my goal in life must be, shall be, and can only be to glorify God.
I never realized this when I was growing up as a teenager, or as a
young adult, or even years beyond that. And because of that ignorance
of God's revelation about glorifying Him, my life was much less than
what it could have been and should have been in the realm of serving
God and being available for His plans for my life. God's revelation to
me explained that I cannot use homosexuality as an excuse to reject
God, to rebel against God, or to feel sorry for myself. That deck of
cards that I have been dealt is one that God knew I could overcome with
a certain amount of self-discipline, prayer, power from the Holy
Spirit, and seeking God's will for my life. I have always read in the
Bible that God will never test us with any tests or challenge that He
knows we cannot overcome. In other words He will never give us a test
that He knows from the get-go that we have no choice but to fail. I
always thought that was somewhat suspect because I always felt that I
was not up to the challenge of homosexuality in my life. I
also certainly
felt inadequate to be able to meet the challenge to glorify
God in
spite of my "curse" of homosexuality.
The really sad news in all
of this is that those who have been dealt the hand that includes
homosexuality have to make a choice in their lives and can do nothing
else but choose one way or the other: either to embrace one's
homosexuality and live a life that relishes that under the theory that
that "God made me gay," or to seek to glorify God by overcoming the
challenge of homosexuality knowing that it is not something that He
ordained for that person's life. Like alcoholism, homosexuality is not
something that God installs in us, but rather something that we inherit
as part of our sin nature from our parents. But the really good news in
this (and it's really good to have some good news in all of this, trust
me) is that for anyone dealing with homosexuality, God has specifically
given you the power to overcome that, to meet that challenge, and to
give God the glory that He is due by meeting that homosexuality head-on
and overcoming it even if it means personal sacrifice in one's life.
SO
WHAT LIFE IS A HOMOSEXUAL SUPPOSED TO LIVE?
When
God revealed to me some of this information about homosexuality, He
explained to me the life that I need to live in order to bring Him the
maximum amount of glory due to His name. That life excludes the
homosexual lifestyle. That life may possibly be less fun (as perceived
by humans) than the life
had I chosen in order to embrace the homosexual lifestyle. But that
life also
may be more fulfilling because of the blessings I would receive from
the Holy Spirit in striving to honor and glorify God alone. I have
asked many times for God to "cure my homosexuality," to what seems to
be no avail. I now understand why that is the case and that I have not
been "cured" of my homosexuality. That is because God explained to me
that I can give Him far more glory in overcoming the
homosexuality than if He came into my life and ripped it out
or,
to use another analogy, if He came into my life and removed those cards
that I had been dealt that allowed homosexuality to be a part of my
life. God could certainly turn me into a straight robot should He
desire, but where would be any glory for Him in that?
So what
does this mean on a daily practical basis? That is difficult to answer
in general because everyone's situation is going to be different. But
in general my guess is that one may live a life that is more subdued,
more mellow, and experience more loneliness in the physical sense than
a person who embraces his homosexuality and in fact celebrates it. That
is because a person who chooses to meet the challenge of his
homosexuality for God's glory must know that the reward waiting for him
in heaven will be huge even though the reward in this life may not seem
that great. That is because the day to day life that a homosexual who
chooses to worship God alone lives may start to wear one down as Satan
attempts to divert one from the path that that person knows he or she
should follow. When I get discouraged from time to time because my life
is not what I want it to be because I must suppress my rebellion
against God, I have to remember that there is a huge reward awaiting me
when I pass from this life into the next. That is because I have been
faithful to bring glory to God to the greatest extent that I can. God
does not expect perfection in any human, but He does want us to
sincerely discipline ourselves, to seek His will for our lives, and to
suppress the rebellious nature that is part of our sin nature. It is a
sad commentary but true that part of the deck of cards that we
inherited from our parents includes, unfortunately, the sin
nature
that afflicts us all.
So yes, I am still homosexual at the
moment, God has not removed that from my life at this time. No, I have
not been "cured," but I am now okay with that. But in spite of my
homosexuality, I have chosen, and will continue to choose as God gives
me the strength, to glorify Him every day by meeting the challenge of
homosexuality head-on, overcoming that, and beating up on Satan every
day that I am successful in that endeavor. I absolutely do believe that
overcoming the daily challenges to my faith brings a lot of glory to
God.
As
one who is still dealing with the "card deck" that includes
homosexuality, I have a huge amount of love for my brothers and sisters
who are likewise dealing with homosexuality in their lives. Unlike
many who preach to homosexuals the "turn or burn" message, I
can
actually say that I face my homosexuality every day in my life and
understand the
pain and frustration caused by the challenge of dealing with
homosexuality in one's life, especially when one wants to give glory to
God alone.
MY
MESSAGE TO MY HOMOSEXUAL BROTHERS AND SISTERS
This
web site is a start to
share the information that I have received in the past few years in
revelations from the Holy Spirit and in information that God has
revealed to me both directly and indirectly. I have also been blessed
by my own study of
God's Word and the guidance of godly men who have helped me to see that
my mission in life, should I decide to accept it, is to glorify God
alone in every way, every moment of every day of every year until which
time God calls me home.
I understand that many homosexuals may
come across this website and think that I'm out to beat them up. That
is actually not the case, but I must share the information I have been
given that has changed my life and I can do no other because that is an
order I have received from my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Salvation
through Jesus Christ is not something that one receives or obtains and
then just hides it under their bed of no value to anyone else. Instead
when one comes to a saving relationship with Jesus Christ and
understands that their first and foremost goal in life is to bring
glory to their God and worship their Lord and Savior Jesus Christ every
moment of every day, there is no choice but for them to share that
information with anyone who will be willing to listen or hear it, or in
this case stumble across it on a web site.
There will be some
homosexuals who are happy with their lifestyle and do not wish to
change it. That is a choice that they must make and they will live that
life as they deem proper for themselves. That is both the beauty and
the terror of having this weird thing called free will. At some point
they may come to realize that a life of homosexuality is in essence an
empty life. At least in my case it was, though it took me time to fully
realize and understand that, and as a huge bonus I no longer
see suicide as an active and desirable option for me, unlike earlier
years. If every time I thought about suicide in my life I put a nickel
into my retirement account, it would be fairly well funded by now.
Unfortunately
for my retirement account, it will be receiving no more nickels, for I
have decided
I am going to store up treasure in Heaven and not on this earth. One
cannot very easily give one's life to Jesus Christ and give Him what
amounts to the title to one's own life and then take that back by
deciding to terminate one's own life. In reality that makes no sense at
all.
You
can read
more about my thoughts on suicide and my own personal struggle with it
in the "I Want To Know What Love Is" sidebar below as well as other
areas where I feel it is relevant to the discussion. In case you are
curious, my life and my own personal and painful struggle with suicide
issues has given me a huge passion to reach young guys with my
testimony, who, like when I
was 20 and all alone to name just one notable example, may be thinking
of leaving this life due to the constant pain of living as a homosexual
who is conflicted with earthly and spirtual forces that seem too great
to endure. More than anything else I want to give you hope and
encouragement to hang in there because suicide is one act that can
never be taken back, no matter why you did it or what you attempted to
achieve by ending your life.
I
will never cease to love my homosexual brothers and sisters even if
they choose to continue in that lifestyle, because God has ordered me
to love them unconditionally as He loves me unconditionally. But just
because you love someone unconditionally does not mean that you do not
look out for their welfare or warn them of things that they may stumble
across that could be detrimental to their life or their health. But
unlike heterosexuals I have a huge amount of empathy for those who are
homosexual
because I myself am homosexual in case you haven't gathered that by
now. And I understand what it is like to be preached to, that one will
burn in hell for eternity if they don't turn from their homosexual
lifestyle; there was a time in my past where I rejected that message
mainly because of the nature of who was giving me that message. I
truly resented a heterosexual telling me that I was going to burn in
hell for
eternity because I was homosexual. I felt like saying, "hey buddy, what
you know about the homosexual lifestyle?" and "What gives you the
right, as a cushy heterosexual, to tell me, as a homosexual, that I
will burn in hell because I am homosexual?"
I have to admit I
resented very much being preached to by heterosexuals who had never
lived a homosexual moment in their entire lives. But now I am a
homosexual who has had revelations made to him by the Holy Spirit that
has changed my personal life to where I desire to bring glory to God. I
can do that by
overcoming the hand of cards that I have been dealt and glorifying God
by resisting the temptation to fall into sin, which for me would be to
embrace the homosexual lifestyle. And make no mistake there was a time
in my life where I very much embraced the homosexual lifestyle and
planned to live that lifestyle until I died. So unlike other web sites
that may preach to you from the cozy safety of heterosexuality, I am
sharing my personal testimony of how God has reached out to me and
revealed to me what He wants me to do with my life. I am also
learning how He wants me
to reach out to other homosexuals with the saving knowledge of who
Jesus Christ is, and what He did to ensure that I could have eternal
life
in Heaven. I am compelled to share that message with other
homosexuals who may not be
happy in their current lifestyle.
I am neither your judge nor
your jury. That is a good thing because I am completely flawed as a
human being. All I can do is share my testimony and tell others what I
have done, the choices I have made, and the rationale for my choices
based on the revelations made to me by the Holy Spirit through my
seeking truth and knowledge of God through His Word.
This is my
first attempt to redo this website. I'm sure that I will find things
that can be improved. But hopefully I will not have to work too hard to
improve the actual message that it may convey about what God has done
in my life. And I just offer it up as a testimony of one who has been
touched by God and has been instructed to share that testimony with
others for the glory and honor of Jesus Christ. My prayer is that
everyone who visits this website will in some way look inside
themselves to ask if they are living a life that is bringing glory to
God which is the reason that they and I were created.
Perhaps this website will get somebody to think about their lives
and whether or not they want to face that same God at the end of their
lives
that they have failed to glorify during their lives. The joy of knowing
where one will spend eternity after one dies is a joy that is subtle
but persistent. For the first time in my entire life I have no doubt
where I will spend eternity and death absolutely has no grip or threat
over me. If you wish to have that level of assurance of where you will
spend eternity I invite you to explore some of those DVDs that have
helped change my life and open my eyes to the truth of my purpose for
being created.
I
also invite you to look at some of the sidebars below that have
allowed me to expand on topics that I think might be relevant to one
who has been dealt the hand of cards that includes a tendency to
homosexuality.
| There's more! Check out these sidebars for some
more discussion
about various related topics! |
THIS
IS A CONTINUATION OF A NEW!
IMPROVED! WEB SITE
This
is the new and improved "Gay and Saved" website. I
hope to be able to add to it, refine it,
and make it even more relevant to the lives of those who may be seeking
answers for themselves. It is my true hope that this website will
minister to people who are seeking to know more about their
homosexuality and their relationship with their God. Comments regarding
this website can be sent to the address at the bottom of this page. May
God be glorified richly in everything that is on this website, and may
everyone who visits it learn something new about themselves and about
the God who created them. Thank you for your time in visiting this
website and may God bless you as you seek answers to some of the
pressing questions you may have.
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
I
would like to acknowledge and thank the Holy Spirit, Jesus Christ, and
his father, God for revealing to me such amazing truths while I am
still living on this planet. I honestly never thought I would have the
information about my life and who I am and why I was created before I
died. I also never believed I could have the complete at 100% assurance
of salvation until this point in my life. I also want to acknowledge
and thank Louie Giglio, who, through his DVDs that I have been
watching, has been pointing me consistently and gently in the direction
of Jesus Christ, and has allowed himself to be used by God to help
transform my life for the glory and honor of God. Thank you Louie, for
helping me realize the most important truths in life as revealed in
God's Word, and for gently and consistently urging me to look up to God
for the answers that I seek in this life.
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